he's become a realy good friend of mine. I've set him up with a few girfriends and stood in as his date for functions. He's super fun, great guy, becoming very important to me. But there's no sexual tention, we just aren't like that. WHich is nice, i've been able to be honest about my kinks without worrying about what he thinks.. he thinks I'm sick and twisted, we've establisehd that! lol
don't look so to me right now. Since I'm working 2 jobs in Ky and my parents live in Maine I also have the expense of flying up there 4 times a year to stay for 10 to 15 days and let my youngest sister have a break. My Dad has parkinsons disease and my Mom has COPD and is on oxygen night times and whenever she bo outside walking around much. Thank God she is still able to drive. Dad is 79 and Mom is 76. There are 3 of us girls, me being the only single one and we help out as much as we can. We have hired a home aid to come in 5 days a week for 2 hrs a day to shower and help my Dad exercise. I think my biggest problem is feeling so quilty at being so far away. But I feel to give my 2 jobs here which are self employment, but very secure to move back there and at 54 yrs I can find work close enough to live with my parents. Who could have guessed at what the future throw at us?
think you are unrealistic in hopes to being who you were before this happened. I think you are putting too much pressure on yourself, expecting to just snap back from the hand that life dealt you. And frankly I'm not sure you should try to go back to who you were, so much as you should try to make peace with the past and focus on making a future using everything that has happened to make yourself stronger. You have had a lot happen to you by such a age: miscarriage, marriage, motherhood and being a stepmom. All by 25! If you haven't been able to resolve these issues yourself, I think it's high time to talk to your doctor about this stuff and if what she/he recommends. Your issues be medical as well as needing a therapist, and your medical doctor have resources at his/her finger tips to specifiy help you in your situation, dealing with your insurance, etc. Couple things: while your husband is for sure doing some bone head things let's face it. Sometimes husbands just ask for sex at the wrong time. They just do. Mine does it often, and he just can't that there are times when it's icky, inappropriate and flat and wrong to ask me for sex. There is a lot of stuff they do that is just misguided and not meant to be hurtful. I think it's totally fair to ask him to hold off on the porn till you have had a fair shot at working through your issues and you feel solid. The main problem you have is your feelings toward stepson. How you feel is really not fair and you MUST find a way to get a grip on it. And I think you should spend the bulk of your therapy on this subject. As a Mother I'm sure you have a compass inside you that is telling you what you "should" be doing in regards to him but your resentment in seeping through. Please make dealing with him your top priority, even if the most you can do is spend a lot of time bowing out or things pertaining to him. Good luck to you Mouse27, you have a lot on your plate but I'm hopeful that you can get through it. You might be raw right now but you have a lot to live for so I think you can pull through, you clearly want to. Good luck!